Name:[ Nicholas Gabriel ]


School:[ St Joseph's College Geelong ]


Age:[ 19 ]


Loves:[ Music ]


Despises:[ Racism and prejudice ]

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*sigh* Emptiness
First time blogging since my depression... it feels good expressing myself.
I realise that Christmas is about giving, i felt so good giving out the gifts that me and uncle spent hours thinking of.
I made a grave mistake though... I'm so angry at myself! I rushed the relationship between me and one of the best friends i've ever met. I cared for her. I tried to make her life more special than she made mine. But I shouldn't have rushed what we had! I scared her! She didn't deserve to be scared... it's all my fault. She doesn't deserve a person like me... I'm stupid and useless!
I wish i wasn't so foolish! I'm not gonna let this get her down though. I can suffer, but i'm not gonna let her face the pain i feel.
I want to journey closer to God, I want to experience His love before i try loving another... I've tried so many times, yet failed. God is the way to everything. I need to accept that. I pray that he'll help me make the right decisions to please Him, and to find the right girl...

Nick Love wrote at [12/27/2008 12:55:00 AM]