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The new Genesis to my life...

When I read any verse in the Bible, I remember the moments I spent with him, either praying or reading the Bible. He has made a great impact in my life. He lead me to God. I'm saddened whenever I think of him, he understands me, he understands my feelings, but he's got his own family to worry about now. Then again, he always finds time to answer my e-mails.
I feel he and his family are open to my thoughts, while my thoughts are negated at home. I can't speak my mind without being persecuted, but he was there when 'backs were turned' to me; he made me feel as though I have a purpose.
He taught me many life lessons throughout the two short weeks he was here. I see him as an older brother, and older brother I never had, but at the same time though, he displayed wisdom and care, like a father. That's what he'll be in eight weeks.
I've replicated the conditions in which I was living in while he was here, just to ease the sadness... and live the memories. Now, those conditions are part of my daily habit.
When I visit the places that I had previously did with him, the memories reappear, as though I'm living it again. It draws a sadness out of me that doesn't subsides, it pulls me out of the events that occur around me. It's the sadness of being alone once again.
Tears fill my eyes as I write this, I'm always brought to tears when I think of him. I can't compress all my feelings into this mere message, but he'll understand...he always does.

Nick Love wrote at [7/04/2008 10:20:00 AM]